oh dont you just love bank holidays!!!!!!another monday off..ech..good life

..the sheep and the sounds and the space oh god and the smell of hope and vibrancy of shapes and ...the grass grass green grass and trees yes lined up yes in squares and circles and shapes unseen by the eye only by the heart. and streets no not streets but white and black and every shade of grey...how dare one step over a beauty like that and cross the alley after alley and not wonder at the mastermind behind all of it...and yes we plan oh yes we dream...as grand and as majestic and as...full of..it all. that matter that makes it hard to breathe but makes the breathing all the more worthwhile. aciu vikute...had the best time ever..your mashiniukas is safe. i keep an eye on it.

will have truffles for breakfast. i looked at the photos from tevyne..ech. jura looks so...spooky.

...i never know if i go

it has started

was so knackered last night..fell asleep infront of a tv and woke up at three am just to take my jeans off and go to bed..was late to work of course. my alarm either did not go off or i simply did not hear it which is impossible..now check this out: i woke up at 8.10 and was at work at 8.30 sharp..which means i got ready in five minutes..got ready is not the right word of course but thats the beauty of my job..no one notices you there..well except Anita and Heather who sit closest to me and teased me about doing this on purpose when our manager is away..oh well..smoking room shitchat hasnt changed: big brotha all way round...Catherine was so funny!! she started talking like Bonnie aka Bonnah haha who should have been so funnah and enterntainah and excitingah and added "ah" to every word she used...oh and then of course the welsh accent when it came to Imogen...people, do you all honestly think shes so hot? hm..for those of you who do not live in London and are not day to day witnesses of the Maddest Big Brother House ever, for your information: http://www.channel4.com/bigbrother/

please for your own wellbeing do NOT start watching it if you havent started already :D its a drug in disguise!!

what the????i just read that Dawn has left the HOUSE!!whats happening in that house...gotta go and do a research ;P

just like you said it should be..
when you forget it is pouring outside and all you know is that you would give everything, anything to hold that one person in your arms. like a ghost..a mirrage..
i have been travelling today. i have seen the shores and the sand and the dust. the dust. and i have wept against the wind and i have sucked on a burning candle and stared at an empty glass and the fucking machine is not working. it will not take me back. it will not.
.......still a little bit of your taste ........
piercing through...harder and harder with every aim..what is it aiming at????? the heart is not there. the substance has seeped through my eyes into the space and got lost. got stepped over. got confused with spices and fruit and liquor..got sold for a nickel..got carried away in a plastic fucking boat made out of a recycled container...i want my container!!!!!!!!! i want it i want it i want it!!!!!!!
i want a vessel to hold this fucking shit all together, all in peace, all in one because my body is too weak..to limited..to temporary...desperate for something perpetual. outlive me. outlive me.

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Event of the Week!
If you can read this you are invited

What: Eurovision Finals aka Euroeyesore
Where: 33 Spencer Ave
When: Saturday the 20th
What time: Before 8p.m.
How: BBC1 at 8p.m.

Theme: Hospital of Kitsch/Pop/Glitter
Dress Code: At least one item out of the ordinary (Dare to disobey at your own expense)

Food/Drink: Bring something to snack on. Wine provided.

See you there!!