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Sunday, October 29, 2006


today...i have been.
both thinking and not there. not registering but filtering. and i have surprised myself with results and the appreciation from other people has done an imense favour to my opinion of myself. and..receiving confirmations of who I am through the eyes and words of strangers that have tilted towards me for a split second and I have not retreated and..you know..it is rather ..happy-to be..


oh what a weekend..
started out in tate modern with sass, wanted to get THE slide but by the time we got to the ticket point out "sliding" time would have been 5p.m. and since i had a date coming up at 5, we had to postpone it until next saturday...we then went to national theatre to see the reuters, state of the world, exhibition which was absolutelly brilliant...i was so impressed and touched and affected..fantastic photography..photographers gallery to follow, hundreds of uplifting conversations and jokes and silences...got home at 3am so feel a bit rough today but loving life at this exact point!!!

now, re reuters...there was a photo by arko datta. it won the world press photo award.. the one you might have seen and im posting it here...heres a story behind it:

Woman mourns relative killed in tsunami, Cuddalore, India, Tamil Nadu, 28 December. On December 26 a massive earthquake off the coast of Sumatra, Indonesia, triggered a series of deadly waves that traveled around the Indian Ocean, wreaking havoc in nine Asian countries, and causing fatalities as far away as Somalia and Tanzania. The quake was so strong that it altered the tilt of the planet by 2,5 centimeters. Nearly 300,000 people died or were reported missing, and millions were left destitute in the worst natural disaster in living memory. In India, the fishing communities in Tamil Nadu were among the worst hit, with homes, lives and livelihoods being wiped away.

do go if you have some free time...just imagine the worlds captured and looking at you...

Wednesday, October 25, 2006



funny article i read at work..look at this cute little thing! its 17 inches tall..like a puppy..imagine having one of those running around your home :)))) su kanopelem tuktuktuk...and then it gets hungry so you get some grass for it and then you take it out for a walk hahaha...kauksht kauksht...

Tuesday, October 24, 2006

we're going hhhooooommmeee!!!! yeah i know its gonna be bloody freezing there in december but cannot wait to see all of you!!! other than that little brother is thinking of moving to london...!... booked tickets to go see sleeping beauty ballet, the only thing missing now is x factor haha...hope to get the tickets, vikute, let me know as soon as you get them..if you do..
p.s.vessy, sorry for taking so long to write to you..ill try to get around it asap

Saturday, October 21, 2006



Some things are happening in my life at the moment so hmmmmm please bear with me for a couple of minutes while I'm in my romantic mood (that doesn't happen very often but I quite like it actually :)

I was on my way home from Brett's when I saw half of a newspaper next to me on the tube..I hate when that happens because usually you only get half of one or another article and end up wanting to finish reading it but cannot. This time however I got a pull out section on Stephen King (valio valio valio!) and off I went catching up with his personal and professional life...It was prob the best interview with a living writer I have read in a long time and a very intimate interview as well..King talked about the theory or cliche or a hypothesis that "after every successful man there is a successful woman" and how this saying grew into an idea for a short story and later a novel that is coming out now as I write..So while asked to comment on the chosen theme, here's what King said...(refer to the paper cut out ;P I say amen to his words and could not agree more! Especially about the marriage part and being with that one person for a very long time)

It made me rethink some things..Go back to realities of my life and rethink the development of some events. I looked at people I have loved and saw how with some of them I knew I loved them and I KNEW I was loved and how with others I knew I was never loved but just really liked the idea of loving them instead (now, if you are asking yourself, how did I know they did not love me then read on and when you come to the last quote it should all make sense)..Anyway...I wont go into much detail here but what I wanted to say is that love in general is such an gigantic topic that I dare not tackle it and I trust the wisdom of others much better than my own imperfect judgment on matters of such magnitude and importance...So I thought (here it comes :)))..How do you know if someone loves you? How do you know if YOU love someone.(I know I know!! I feel like its not me talking as well! so pathetic but lets just finish it off)..Some people say it happens when "while being around that person you want to be a better version of yourself..."

which I think is soo so damn beautiful and true..And then..Other people say and I believe in that even stronger with every passing day:

"what you feel only matters to you, its what you DO to the people you love that counts..."

you know, I think I heard that in Last Kiss trailer! LOL Talk about cliches..But nonetheless...Who cares....The point is that I think its brilliant...That's exactly how I feel it and now Stephen King and some Wise Nobody has put it all down on paper for me..(Talk about prolonged realization. zirafos kaklas blem) That's when I got off the tube and it kind of clicked..Not a revelation as such but it just clicked..And it felt..Good..I could finally draw a line and know where I am standing..And more importantly - what I want...

such a fucking relief...its hard to explain and I dont really want to go that deep but yeah..it just...finally felt right


p.s. yes i CAN write better. yes i chose to write in such a shitty style and yes it disgusts me how first-grade it is but i just had to get it out there. do forgive haha.

Friday, October 20, 2006

www.kinetica-museum.org/kinetic.htm

taking Brett to see the show...should be good..

what else....:))))))))
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vikute!!! oh ill tell you in person hahhaha

Wednesday, October 18, 2006

so. my day. got home earlier. did not do much overtime. Etaka and Anita, two other ladies from work who do overtime with me, left at the same time so im glad i didnt stay there on my own. had a long chat with virgin to figure out the reason for the slow broadband speed im getting. no luck. if the shit hits the fan i might have to change providers which i dont want to do but then i do want a better speed so tough luck...will see what their reply is...mind you, virgin is prob the second best customer service experience ive had...ebay is NR 1 without doubt..lovefilm is down there at the bottom..hehe...you suck lovefilm. well now that theyve merged maybe they will do better. but yeah. ebay was a star...so polite and professional. solved all my problems :D

wrote a couple of emails and did some other things..and its evening already..
our christmas party! wait till you hear this: in a skating rink!!! hahaha...the number of people up for it is very small...im not sure if ill go..i might..sans the skates. take my cam and take photos of all accidents on ice. shit. might have to go to allie pallie to practice skating. dont want to be embarrassed (sp?) if they make me skate :D

my little brother turned 23 yesterday.
nuuu...im scared how time flies..

Tuesday, October 17, 2006

well...the last few days, the last week to be precise, has been rather hectic. did not have any time to sit down in front of my pc and update the space...a lot has happened but today is a day to remember..a very good friend of mine has left london and moved to prague today and i have just put down the phone after talking to him before he boarded the plane at gatwick. it a very strange feeling..one i have not felt for a long long long time...i remember having that when i was saying byes to friends in canada or summer camps with ywam but there was nothing in my life in london to suggest that i might have to experience it once again and sooner than i would have thought. leaving london was always an option for him but i never thought it will happen so it did hit me...i cannot describe it..i know i will see him very soon and he will come and stay with me in london but and we might even meet new years in prague with his friends but its not that...i dont know..its like letting someone very close go but at the same time you did not know how much they mean to you until that minute they said: i got the ticket, im going..i realized how much...for the lack of a better word, i love him..and care for him and i really hope it all goes well for him in prague..sad...very sad...it hasnt registered with me yet...

Friday, October 06, 2006

took Brett to see Little Miss Sunshine the other day. I watched it twice now and Im absolutelly in love with it..its probably the best film I have seen in years and if you have not seen it yet, GO WATCH IT!!!!!!!!!!!!

I think it would be a sin not to...honestly, its brilliant!!! BRILLIANT..i loved every single second of it...

more of that stuff please